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December 29, 2009

Blue Moon


Once in a blue moon, I shall blog! This year was pretty awesome. Some highlights:
  • Moved in with a sexy milf, OH YEA!
  • I got a couple new piercings this year
  • I found myself a really good job after being unemployed for what seemed like forever.
  • Made some headway into some of my financial debt
I had a great Holiday except for Thanksgiving when I was at home with a bug. I wanted to see my pops before he went to Qatar but I didn't. He called me on Christmas, though.

My mom found some books that I owned as child and she gave them to me. I was really touched to find that one of them was signed by my Poppa (my mom's father), who died when I was very young. It's pretty much the only thing I have left of him other than memories of being scared because of his tracheotomy. I have been thinking about the series of books, called "ValueTales" for some time before. I never remembered where and when I got them, though! It was a nice surprise to know that my grandparents got them for my birthday and that I appreciated it when I was a kid. I think sometimes I regret not being closer to them. Meema is going to be 93 in January!

I'm not making a New Year's resolution this year. Instead, I am making a commitment to do something prior to the end of the year. I think that making a resolution isn't really sincere if you can't make it when you think about it. My newest commitments have been to stop smoking and start losing weight again. I have, unfortunately, halted my weight loss due to laziness, or something. Well, Kelly is on board with eating better and I still have a gym membership that I will need to make good use of. I think I am going to track some of my weight loss on a site called SparkPeople. I cannot know for certain, but it should help me focus some of my effort and give me some much needed inspiration.

This year, I also became a parent. At first, I was very worried that it would be too difficult. I was also worried that it could ruin a relationship with Kelly by placing too much demand on us. However, the opposite is true. It has brought us closer and helped both of us. I helped normalize both of their lives a little bit and they helped me by reaffirming that Love really does happen and has happened to me. I feel very fortunate. I also feel like the feelings we share are much more real than other relationships I've had in the past. I'm not saying that out of any bitterness, either. I'm absolutely certain that she's my greatest love.

I will end this off with a quote:

Clarity of mind means clarity of passion, too; this is why a great and clear mind loves ardently and sees distinctly what it loves.
Blaise Pascal French mathematician, physicist (1623 - 1662)

November 30, 2009

10 Ways to Flip the bird

  1. Stinkfist sneak - "P.U.!"
  2. Up yours - easiest to remember. The finger goes up and your thumb goes out. Say "up yours!" with a snarky smile.
  3. Aim high - where the finger looks like an airplane. You say "Aim high Air Force!"
  4. Jack in the box - Middle finger pops up after winding your thumb singing a silly song. "Da duh dunnh..." you get the idea.
  5. Bite your thumb - Shakespeare's way of saying it. Good enuf for The Bard, good enuf for me. (Hopefully the pic link doesn't break)
  6. Volume - an oldie goldie. You point the bird down and ask "Is this loud enough for you? Then let me turn it up!" And rotate your middle finger to the bird's recognizable upright position.
  7. Behind the Back - Usually done when someone gets pwned, or you're just on your way out. This is when you are facing away from the bird and it's given over the shoulder. You can look back, but cool guys don't look at explosions. You hear that Keanu!
  8. The Scratch - Or The Rub... this one is pointing out a part of your face or ears while flipping the bird.
  9. Nose pick - Flipping the bird while picking your nose.
  10. The pocket - My all time favorite and can sometimes be unexpected. "Here let me get you something..."

July 14, 2009

New Direction?

As if I didn't have enough to do, I think I want to reread the Dune series from the beginning, in a group. I would like to take this literature's relationship to the next level, so to speak. I already have at least two people interested, my girlfriend and another awesome friend, Tasha.

I'm currently reading Hunters of Dune and I will likely reread Sandworms of Dune. Are there upcoming movies to talk about or are they just foundless rumors? It seems the Herbert franchise is recovering since the death of FH, but what differences has Brian Herbert and Kevin J. Anderson, whom I will now collectively call the BH&KA for my own amusement, introduced in their philosophical and literary interpretation of Frank's last work?

I could probably form a meetup group, twitter, blah blah blah, but I'm going to do that later. I think I'll goto bed now, though. I'm recovering from a long weekend.

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June 30, 2009

My Turn... (last day email)

Today is the last day of my contract so now it’s my turn to write one of these emails. As I pace down the memory hallways of the once-employed, I will be thinking fondly about most of you. I will carry many of the relationships I formed for years to come. I regret the things I could have done better and the things I didn’t get to learn. It seems like for every eureka! there was a doh! However, I spent most of my time here mentoring others and being a resource of tribal knowledge. Every day was a new experience. I can’t complain because I honestly enjoyed the challenge and there were others who struggled with it more than I ever did.

Work-wise, I tested the Games for Windows LIVE (WebUX) marketplace which demanded great attention to detail, focus, and resiliency through product release and project completion. I deepened my understanding of several software methodologies such as Web Automation using Visual Studio, the BraidyTester method, and Agile Development. I implemented a Hyper-V framework that combines the power of Powershell, WTT, and Octopus to deploy, test, and email quality reports of packaged builds with each developer check-in… just in time for the work to be abandoned after re-org. I maintained several test machine resources, performed security analysis, and administered SSL-encrypted websites using tools and techniques such as FxCop, ESearch, and attack surface scanning. I was also exposed to custom C# data classes, XML readers, and Visual Studio web tests by performing peer to peer code reviews and buddy builds within source control systems such as Source Depot and TFS.

Socially, this year I volunteered as a PAX Enforcer and I hope to see many of you there. I added a few coworkers to my fb profile but none of you follow me on twitter, yet. I also blogged more, scrobbled music to my Last.FM station, and earned 5800 Gamer Points™ for my gamertag this past year.

I accomplished all of this in the face of a bitter divorce, eating a 10% pay cut, and being managed by a negligent landlord. But I believe that the world is going through a major transition despite the ubiquitous feeling of doom and gloom. This is a time for Internet pioneers and for thinking outside the quantum box (maybe). The industry will never lose its appeal to me as long as I can have such far-reaching consequences. The growing pains we have now will eventually lead to a world of our own making.

Thanks to Myles Stewart for the pic and the interesting conversations. Thanks to Chris Nippard for being the zaniest roommate I’ve ever known. Thanks to Chris Stephenson and Lila Tran for being excellent mentors. Thanks to Alex Vinyar for the resume referral. Thanks to Matt Buchanan/BigRed for greeting me as “n00b!” and fixing some tasty shots at the last Enforcer party. Thanks to Nick Kinnan for the cigarette breaks. Best of luck to you all! I invite everyone to contact me at canovac@msn.com via Live Messenger and email. Job referrals would be most appreciated, too (wink wink, nudge nudge).

June 27, 2009

Bard's Song

What's it like getting ignored all day?
Who took your little toy car away?
A month left and that's all you can say?
Let me try, shall I, this other way.

May 17, 2009

Spacewalk

Amazing day! Yesterday, I read a Scientific American article about the tweeting astronaut which sounded really cool. Click click click, I was following his tweets while he was in space! Too cool! My favorite tweet:
From orbit: My spacewalk was amazing, we had some tough problems, but through them all, the view of our precious planet was beautiful
and
From orbit: This is an awesome experience, the privilege to fly in space and work on the Hubble is beyond my dreams
Phenomenal! I have dreamed about being an astronaut and now I get to virtually interact somehow with one? I do not always take every Internet "thing" for granted, but I'm pretty sure this is a person speaking from space.

I soon discovered that a Facebook fan page was tracking the progress of the mission, which happens to be the very last mission that will be planned to maintain the Hubble Space Telescope. All morning long, I have been reading up to the minute reports from someone relaying the status to its 4,000 fans. Eventually, I figured out that Nasa was hosting live streaming video of the mission, too! My excitement about the discovery and my thankfulness for the Internet in general increased with every post.

I navigate to the live video and I see two space hands grasping some equipment. The astronauts pause for a moment to admire a lightning show on Earth from space, but the camera failed to pivot towards anything but the belly of the Hubble. I realized that the astronaut in the helmet could probably move his head around without moving the head-mounted camera around. The astronauts, also known as the two Mikes, were busy for hours trying to remove an old hand rail in order to get at some equipment that needed replacing. I was following this live?? ZOMG

I get bored eventually and go out to the living room to play on the Xbox. I know, I know, but I was in for a treat! To my surprise, the TV was tuned to the cable, which neither myself or the roomie usually watch. It was on ESPN which I hardly knew we had. He must have been watching some game. I flip to see what's on. To my astonishment, the University of Washington's UW2 channel had the same space walk I was just admiring! I had followed the trail of bread crumbs to this moment, it seems. Now, I am witnessing the end of the space walk in my living room in full 50" Plamsa HDTV glory!

This time, it was far more interesting. I couldn't have planned it better, I think! Instead of the boring innards of HST, I was viewing the mirrored outside of the telescope, with the astronaut's camera looking directly at the astronaut and space beyond! My jaw drops. My world has just been blown apart. I feel connected to these people. I am crying by the end of the broadcast.

At one point, the astronaut took an impossibly futuristic tool from his belt. Looked like a laser gun from the year 4020, but it was merely an expensive power screwdriver, made for space. I discovered later that this was a new tool they were using for the first time. After the last mission, the specifications were drawn up and the astronauts were trained to use it before this mission began. When it was used, there were very loud clicking sounds that reverberated through the spacesuit's microphone. It was so exact because the astronaut could specify the exact number of turns expected for each screw he was tightening! I was amazed by the details this astronaut was expected to track. When Mike would ask, an operator either on the ground or in the shuttle, moved him via a robotic arm to the exact location he needed to be. I got there in time to see the doors of the shuttle being bolted closed, which required the astronaut to move up and down along the outside of the HST.

Every now and then, the astronauts would do safety checks. After they worked for some time, or perhaps because they were using their hands, operators would call out a glove check. The astronauts, looking like an austic baby in a full-body diaper suit, would poke a gloved finger against each finger on the opposite side and report back to Mission Control about its status. Each finger was examined and re-examined over for any tears, holes, or numbness. One of the Mikes found a small tear in the (million dollar?) spacesuit glove after some work. MC had them position his hand and zoom in to an extreme close up to verify it. My heart was leaping... perhaps they would have to come back in??? No, it was a small tear and the suit was still intact. *WHEW*

Another safety check that they did was to count the number of wire leads and tools they brought with them as they were about to end the spacewalk. There was a panic over the count as one of the leads seemingly ended up missing. Two groups on the ground were puzzling over the count, retracing video and their stressful memories over and over until they both simultaneously announced the solution - that it was expected. I was impressed with the amazing teamwork everyone did, on the ground and in space.

A gasp escaped my lips as the astronauts drew away from the telescope. They had closed the HST doors and I could see the shuttle right-side up on the screen, but orbiting upside down, making the Earth into an impossible object in the black sky overhead (loosely speaking, of course). The telescope's mirrored doors reflected everything back to the camera and I was overwhelmed with a powerful connectedness. I absolutely felt like I was there.

Towards the end, the astronauts were given some time to relax from their 8 hour workload and say a few things. I was getting choked up watching them. I could see one astronaut near the hatch and tethered to the space shuttle while the other was hovering at an impossible angle from him in space, on the end of the Canadian-made robotic arm attached to the shuttle (could tell by the red maple leaf on it). I could tell the astronauts were thankful, estatic, and awed by their experience. I felt the same.

May 16, 2009

Happy National Piercing Day

I recently realized that, if I were to count my body modifications, I have 7 piercings, 5 surgery scars, 2 tattoos, and an internal gastric band, I also recently learned, just now in fact, that it is National Piercing Day! I just got pierced. Chuck at Pierced Hearts Tattoo Parlor pierced my girlfriend and I. I highly recommend her and the shop outside the secret lab we were pierced in. Kelly woke me up that morning to "rape" me. Our mutual wounds would prevent us from coitus and we wanted to get enough to tide us for awhile. Even though we were tardy our appointment a half hour from the shower, Chuck handled us like children. "On three, sweetie" she said before she poked Kelly then I. The phrase going through my head at the time was "Bela Lugosi's dead... undead undead" but only because the tattooist in the parlor shop outside the door was playing Bauhaus for a customer. She was getting Bela's serene face inked to her arm.